Wednesday, December 29, 2010 8:30 PM
EVERYTHING IS IRRITATING ME RIGHT NOW. ugh.
the comp doesnt want to function properly,
i cant sign into my ebuddy account,
im feeling pretty upset about the end of today,
my mom still doesnt want to bring me to see a doctor,
im super hungry.
which means, IM EASILY IRRITATED.
there was dance the past 2 days. well, i felt that we wasted yesterday and today was a total failure i guess? combined was today. for the mini concert, i thought that it was not bad. especially when cultural danced. i could tell that they improved. we shouted and somehow, i felt that we were one. the feeling was there but, theres room for improvement. no one can be the best within minutes, we cant expect them to be the cream of the crop overnight. it takes time.
sec 2s led today, i think not bad eventhough things were a mess. i mean, problems will sure arise wont they? to me, things werent as bad as what he said. i agree with some of the points. most people didnt know what the plan was and couldnt act according to the plan cause no one told us. its always this problem dont you see? i mean, the last combined prac, only 2 of them knew what was going on. this time, its just the ex co. im not trying to criticise or what. not saying that the way you guys do things is wrong. but try to think in our position. you cant just order us around like servents. tell us what's going on. once everyone knows, things will go according to planned. for example, during the mini concert, the ex cos said that nan hua should sit at a certain area. thats what you all expect us to know. but how are we supposed to know when you dont tell us?! doesnt make sense... i dont mind that you all plan by yourselves. i dont. but you dont even tell us whats going on? im a little upset about this point.
anyway whatever was said at the end of today, i think it was kind of redundant. some points we true. but most were not. we tried to help. speaking in the point of view as a normal sec 3, you guys want us to help you as we are the leading batch but how are we going to help when we are like the rest, not knowing what is going on? thats why we are standing at the side, clueless of what to do or rather what to take initiative on. we dont even know what is going to happen next, how do we take the initiative. yes, we can help but do you guys even regard us as your batchmates to start with? remember, we said no matter who is the ex co, we will plan things TOGETHER. this never happened after the elections. im sorry but this is how i feel. i tried to tell you guys many times but i have given up. i dont think you'll ever get it.
k im really angry cause of a lot of things, i dont mean to rant or what but i'll die if i dont say.
next, i know its a small matter. i am angry since last night is because i was taking things seriously yet you made a joke out of whatever i said. i want to know if you even regarded what i said seriously? im trying to get my point across so that this wouldnt happen again. but did you bother understanding? you're tired, easily irritated, whatever. but so am i? i had a full day of dance and i slept for about 4 hours only. didnt have lunch or breakfast. then you come and tell me this kind of thing. obviously i'll get angrier right? ugh.
k im really pissed.
the comp doesnt want to function properly,
i cant sign into my ebuddy account,
im feeling pretty upset about the end of today,
my mom still doesnt want to bring me to see a doctor,
im super hungry.
which means, IM EASILY IRRITATED.
there was dance the past 2 days. well, i felt that we wasted yesterday and today was a total failure i guess? combined was today. for the mini concert, i thought that it was not bad. especially when cultural danced. i could tell that they improved. we shouted and somehow, i felt that we were one. the feeling was there but, theres room for improvement. no one can be the best within minutes, we cant expect them to be the cream of the crop overnight. it takes time.
sec 2s led today, i think not bad eventhough things were a mess. i mean, problems will sure arise wont they? to me, things werent as bad as what he said. i agree with some of the points. most people didnt know what the plan was and couldnt act according to the plan cause no one told us. its always this problem dont you see? i mean, the last combined prac, only 2 of them knew what was going on. this time, its just the ex co. im not trying to criticise or what. not saying that the way you guys do things is wrong. but try to think in our position. you cant just order us around like servents. tell us what's going on. once everyone knows, things will go according to planned. for example, during the mini concert, the ex cos said that nan hua should sit at a certain area. thats what you all expect us to know. but how are we supposed to know when you dont tell us?! doesnt make sense... i dont mind that you all plan by yourselves. i dont. but you dont even tell us whats going on? im a little upset about this point.
anyway whatever was said at the end of today, i think it was kind of redundant. some points we true. but most were not. we tried to help. speaking in the point of view as a normal sec 3, you guys want us to help you as we are the leading batch but how are we going to help when we are like the rest, not knowing what is going on? thats why we are standing at the side, clueless of what to do or rather what to take initiative on. we dont even know what is going to happen next, how do we take the initiative. yes, we can help but do you guys even regard us as your batchmates to start with? remember, we said no matter who is the ex co, we will plan things TOGETHER. this never happened after the elections. im sorry but this is how i feel. i tried to tell you guys many times but i have given up. i dont think you'll ever get it.
k im really angry cause of a lot of things, i dont mean to rant or what but i'll die if i dont say.
next, i know its a small matter. i am angry since last night is because i was taking things seriously yet you made a joke out of whatever i said. i want to know if you even regarded what i said seriously? im trying to get my point across so that this wouldnt happen again. but did you bother understanding? you're tired, easily irritated, whatever. but so am i? i had a full day of dance and i slept for about 4 hours only. didnt have lunch or breakfast. then you come and tell me this kind of thing. obviously i'll get angrier right? ugh.
k im really pissed.
Sunday, December 26, 2010 9:58 PM
Hmm...
hey, im trying to get the blogging mood back but not really suceeding... heh:p anyway, im blogging for myself to see now rather than to let others see, haha doesn't matter as long as im able to vent my frustrations by typing here.
Gym was kind of tiring today but didn't perspire much? that sentence kind of sounds weird eh? haha, whatever. i realised i only fulfiled like one out of three of my wishes on gym stuff. :c so sad. sigh, i shall work harder next year(;
Wasn't in the mood for ballet today... sorry:x i think we're like fast compared to others caused we finished everything already!(; i think we learned grade 7 faster than any other grades. i feel sad for yu lao shi... i think that we're like his only hope but sometimes, we dont have the mood forballet then our moves are like yucks... :c sigh... hope to improve!
oh, this year's christmas mood just wasn't there. its weird when the tree isn't there. this year's presents were predictable? cousins gave a shirt, mom gave a flask(its really handy when sch reopens!), sis brought me for a shopping spree(; haha and theres another one which she will be sponsor me!(: going to shop at fareast i think! hehe. happy(;
I'm soooo gonna work more than sis did so that i can pamper myself(; since young, i dont really get to go shopping and stuff. mom buys things for sis most of the time... haha but things changed this year, cause i got mom to get me something everytime we go out(; but of course, im not some spoilt brat! whatever i get would be because i need it and the price is affordable. im not those type of people who wants branded goods. nah... i just get whatever i like, price comes first!(; haha.
i'll try to get some photos up each time, got to get used to using my laptop again. i'be lived without it for months already! haha(;
toodles~
hey, im trying to get the blogging mood back but not really suceeding... heh:p anyway, im blogging for myself to see now rather than to let others see, haha doesn't matter as long as im able to vent my frustrations by typing here.
Gym was kind of tiring today but didn't perspire much? that sentence kind of sounds weird eh? haha, whatever. i realised i only fulfiled like one out of three of my wishes on gym stuff. :c so sad. sigh, i shall work harder next year(;
Wasn't in the mood for ballet today... sorry:x i think we're like fast compared to others caused we finished everything already!(; i think we learned grade 7 faster than any other grades. i feel sad for yu lao shi... i think that we're like his only hope but sometimes, we dont have the mood forballet then our moves are like yucks... :c sigh... hope to improve!
oh, this year's christmas mood just wasn't there. its weird when the tree isn't there. this year's presents were predictable? cousins gave a shirt, mom gave a flask(its really handy when sch reopens!), sis brought me for a shopping spree(; haha and theres another one which she will be sponsor me!(: going to shop at fareast i think! hehe. happy(;
I'm soooo gonna work more than sis did so that i can pamper myself(; since young, i dont really get to go shopping and stuff. mom buys things for sis most of the time... haha but things changed this year, cause i got mom to get me something everytime we go out(; but of course, im not some spoilt brat! whatever i get would be because i need it and the price is affordable. im not those type of people who wants branded goods. nah... i just get whatever i like, price comes first!(; haha.
i'll try to get some photos up each time, got to get used to using my laptop again. i'be lived without it for months already! haha(;
toodles~
Friday, December 24, 2010 11:06 PM
YAY!
my laptop is working right now, i hope i'll post more often! haha. its the eve of christmas and the mood just isnt there now... it kind of feels so weird eh? Oh! I had fun at my cousins house where we played games. sounds kind of lame yah? it just brought the smiles out of me!(:
hmm, im getting a new phone tmr? i dont think daddy lets me take both... so i prefer using iphone then. should i choose blackberry curve or nokia E5 or E72? rawr. i sound like a rich kid right? haha sorry im NOT. just that my plan needs to be renewed so we'll get to have a phone for free or at a discounted price...
oh yes, i went shopping with my sis today at scape to see the flea market. its like kind of nth to buy except for accessories... most clothes are second hand so yeah, didnt like them. but i got a skirt its brand new(; we met a super nice lady there who sold semi-precious stones. she's super lovely. my sis is so nice to bring me shopping as my christmas present! she paid for everything i got. but yeah, didnt get much cause it isnt my money anyway! walked for super long-.- and got lost! haha. orchard is super close to bukit timah? took less than 15mins to reach my cousin's house!
okay let's see what has happened recently...
my cousin, larisa, might be going to cambridge to study law(; so smart eh? haha. sigh, jealous of her!!! she's sooooo smart!!!(;
well, apart from all the happy stuff, i've got lots of homework to do. lots left undone. especially chem when im not good at it plus im not a fan of chem...
SYF next year, stressed. okay -end-
my laptop is working right now, i hope i'll post more often! haha. its the eve of christmas and the mood just isnt there now... it kind of feels so weird eh? Oh! I had fun at my cousins house where we played games. sounds kind of lame yah? it just brought the smiles out of me!(:
hmm, im getting a new phone tmr? i dont think daddy lets me take both... so i prefer using iphone then. should i choose blackberry curve or nokia E5 or E72? rawr. i sound like a rich kid right? haha sorry im NOT. just that my plan needs to be renewed so we'll get to have a phone for free or at a discounted price...
oh yes, i went shopping with my sis today at scape to see the flea market. its like kind of nth to buy except for accessories... most clothes are second hand so yeah, didnt like them. but i got a skirt its brand new(; we met a super nice lady there who sold semi-precious stones. she's super lovely. my sis is so nice to bring me shopping as my christmas present! she paid for everything i got. but yeah, didnt get much cause it isnt my money anyway! walked for super long-.- and got lost! haha. orchard is super close to bukit timah? took less than 15mins to reach my cousin's house!
okay let's see what has happened recently...
my cousin, larisa, might be going to cambridge to study law(; so smart eh? haha. sigh, jealous of her!!! she's sooooo smart!!!(;
well, apart from all the happy stuff, i've got lots of homework to do. lots left undone. especially chem when im not good at it plus im not a fan of chem...
SYF next year, stressed. okay -end-
