Wednesday, December 29, 2010 8:30 PM
EVERYTHING IS IRRITATING ME RIGHT NOW. ugh.
the comp doesnt want to function properly,
i cant sign into my ebuddy account,
im feeling pretty upset about the end of today,
my mom still doesnt want to bring me to see a doctor,
im super hungry.
which means, IM EASILY IRRITATED.
there was dance the past 2 days. well, i felt that we wasted yesterday and today was a total failure i guess? combined was today. for the mini concert, i thought that it was not bad. especially when cultural danced. i could tell that they improved. we shouted and somehow, i felt that we were one. the feeling was there but, theres room for improvement. no one can be the best within minutes, we cant expect them to be the cream of the crop overnight. it takes time.
sec 2s led today, i think not bad eventhough things were a mess. i mean, problems will sure arise wont they? to me, things werent as bad as what he said. i agree with some of the points. most people didnt know what the plan was and couldnt act according to the plan cause no one told us. its always this problem dont you see? i mean, the last combined prac, only 2 of them knew what was going on. this time, its just the ex co. im not trying to criticise or what. not saying that the way you guys do things is wrong. but try to think in our position. you cant just order us around like servents. tell us what's going on. once everyone knows, things will go according to planned. for example, during the mini concert, the ex cos said that nan hua should sit at a certain area. thats what you all expect us to know. but how are we supposed to know when you dont tell us?! doesnt make sense... i dont mind that you all plan by yourselves. i dont. but you dont even tell us whats going on? im a little upset about this point.
anyway whatever was said at the end of today, i think it was kind of redundant. some points we true. but most were not. we tried to help. speaking in the point of view as a normal sec 3, you guys want us to help you as we are the leading batch but how are we going to help when we are like the rest, not knowing what is going on? thats why we are standing at the side, clueless of what to do or rather what to take initiative on. we dont even know what is going to happen next, how do we take the initiative. yes, we can help but do you guys even regard us as your batchmates to start with? remember, we said no matter who is the ex co, we will plan things TOGETHER. this never happened after the elections. im sorry but this is how i feel. i tried to tell you guys many times but i have given up. i dont think you'll ever get it.
k im really angry cause of a lot of things, i dont mean to rant or what but i'll die if i dont say.
next, i know its a small matter. i am angry since last night is because i was taking things seriously yet you made a joke out of whatever i said. i want to know if you even regarded what i said seriously? im trying to get my point across so that this wouldnt happen again. but did you bother understanding? you're tired, easily irritated, whatever. but so am i? i had a full day of dance and i slept for about 4 hours only. didnt have lunch or breakfast. then you come and tell me this kind of thing. obviously i'll get angrier right? ugh.
k im really pissed.
the comp doesnt want to function properly,
i cant sign into my ebuddy account,
im feeling pretty upset about the end of today,
my mom still doesnt want to bring me to see a doctor,
im super hungry.
which means, IM EASILY IRRITATED.
there was dance the past 2 days. well, i felt that we wasted yesterday and today was a total failure i guess? combined was today. for the mini concert, i thought that it was not bad. especially when cultural danced. i could tell that they improved. we shouted and somehow, i felt that we were one. the feeling was there but, theres room for improvement. no one can be the best within minutes, we cant expect them to be the cream of the crop overnight. it takes time.
sec 2s led today, i think not bad eventhough things were a mess. i mean, problems will sure arise wont they? to me, things werent as bad as what he said. i agree with some of the points. most people didnt know what the plan was and couldnt act according to the plan cause no one told us. its always this problem dont you see? i mean, the last combined prac, only 2 of them knew what was going on. this time, its just the ex co. im not trying to criticise or what. not saying that the way you guys do things is wrong. but try to think in our position. you cant just order us around like servents. tell us what's going on. once everyone knows, things will go according to planned. for example, during the mini concert, the ex cos said that nan hua should sit at a certain area. thats what you all expect us to know. but how are we supposed to know when you dont tell us?! doesnt make sense... i dont mind that you all plan by yourselves. i dont. but you dont even tell us whats going on? im a little upset about this point.
anyway whatever was said at the end of today, i think it was kind of redundant. some points we true. but most were not. we tried to help. speaking in the point of view as a normal sec 3, you guys want us to help you as we are the leading batch but how are we going to help when we are like the rest, not knowing what is going on? thats why we are standing at the side, clueless of what to do or rather what to take initiative on. we dont even know what is going to happen next, how do we take the initiative. yes, we can help but do you guys even regard us as your batchmates to start with? remember, we said no matter who is the ex co, we will plan things TOGETHER. this never happened after the elections. im sorry but this is how i feel. i tried to tell you guys many times but i have given up. i dont think you'll ever get it.
k im really angry cause of a lot of things, i dont mean to rant or what but i'll die if i dont say.
next, i know its a small matter. i am angry since last night is because i was taking things seriously yet you made a joke out of whatever i said. i want to know if you even regarded what i said seriously? im trying to get my point across so that this wouldnt happen again. but did you bother understanding? you're tired, easily irritated, whatever. but so am i? i had a full day of dance and i slept for about 4 hours only. didnt have lunch or breakfast. then you come and tell me this kind of thing. obviously i'll get angrier right? ugh.
k im really pissed.
