I shouldn't have appealed. it was a wrong decision. i thought that perhaps i can make it but it appears that i'm too stupid for the class. yeah, i'm stupid, born stupid. what you want me to do? i'm already trying my best. i don't want to give up. i don't. after today i realised that i'm really stupid and there's just so much for me to do. i don't want anyone to despise me and i won't let you despise me. i'll put in my best effort.

i won't let anyone hurt my ego just like that. even if i'm alone, i'm gonna stand strong and fight this battle to my very best.

i shall work hard and not let those stupid words affect me. i won't allow that to happen.